Life

Since the first day we are lunged out of our mothers, we were born to learn that we grow through little steps and little choices we make on our own. As babies, we had to learn everything for the first time. We had our first crawl, learned how to climb and eventually, learned how to walk and run. Sure, we had the aid of our parents, but every little effort we took, came from our own strengths.

As we grow older, we look back at times when we were kids and think “We had it so easy back then. Everything was done for us and not a care in the world in our innocent minds.” While that may be true, the grown up version ourselves fail to see or remember what was going through our minds when we were kids. We think that every little problem we had as babies would be solved by just a cry and at a blink of an eye, someone would come to our aid and fix it. Did we ever stop to wonder the amount of stress the baby-versions of us were in back then? Having to always cry and wait for someone to help instead of having the ability to do things on our own?

We ache for the ability to just have someone do things for us, and it’s because of that need that we start looking at the challenges life throws at us as a mind-numbingly difficult one, when it really isn’t all that bad. I mean, think of it this way, when we were born, we knew nothing. Yet, we were able to train our minds and bodies to do something completely alien to our own basic knowledge.

It begs to answer the question, “Is anything in life difficult?” The answer to that is, yes. However, that never ever gives us the right to stop trying and stop believing on ourselves. Take into consideration this scenario:

“Imagine a time where you had to learn to walk all by yourself, but you gave up and just decided to stop. Would that decision give you the ability to walk to work? Or give you the ability to get your own food or make friends?”

In life, every little thing that comes to us acts as a linking bridge to something harder, but greater. A problem we face right now, when solved, could take us to a better place where even more challenges are awaiting our arrival. What will we do then? Just sit there and give up? Expecting someone to just waltz on by and do it for us? No. We stand up for what we know we can do and push our own limits to do the impossible. What may seem difficult now will soon look like just a pathetic speck to us in 10 years. You know how I know I’m right? Take a step back and ask yourself, how do you see how your problems were like when you were 5?


-Illiana Z.

Rezeki seorang anak yatim.

It amazes me how bountiful the rezeki is for orphans. A couple of months ago, a few friends of mine and I made a trip to al Nasuha orphanage in Gombak to spend the day with the orphans living there. We brought goodie bags for them, played games and treated them to KFC. That trip gave me an idea to make this a twice a year kind of thing. I immediately decided to open up a new bank account to keep some money aside for me to spend on orphans.

Before deciding to, I found it difficult to find money or even get job opportunities. I mean, aside from the allowance I get from my parents, I wanted some extra money for me to indulge in clothes, CDs and what nots. But as soon as I niat (set my heart to) raise some money to help those less fortunate, job opportunities came flooding in and the pay, came in masses! Alhamdulillah, when it comes to orphans, InsyaAllah, rezeki akan datang.

Earlier today, while I was in Bangsar with a friend, I ran into an old acquaintance and he offered me a job in his production company to help write jingles for any adverts his company is working on. InsyaAllah, my intentions are right and this dream I have will soon be fulfilled. If anyone is interested, feel free to email me :)

Entry Numero Uno

So this is probably my 57847392nd blog, and I always say on my first post; this will be it. The blog I will make sure I write on religiously!


But yes, all my blogs never pass through the 5th post mark. Oh well, won't make such promises this time :) So, I've been browsing through a few blogs and all of them have their "About Me"s as their first post. So, here goes I guess-

Well, I'm 20 this year. I'm currently on my gap year, so I've been trying to figure out what to do during this period of time that is productive and profitable. Took me awhile, but I finally managed to get myself involved with this organization called "The Jumping Jelly Beans. They're this performing arts company that do, obviously, plays and musicals, but what drew me towards working with them was the fact that they do a lot of work with children who suffer from Down-Syndrome and Autism. I figured, "Eh, since I have a year of absolutely nothing to do, might as well help the less fortunate". As so my journey begins.. :)

I love doing charity and helping those less fortunate. My mom's involvement in the world of charity has influenced me greatly. I've realized that I have a wonderful life (no, i did not JUST realize this, I'm not THAT daft!) but yeah, I figured there are so many people who are either younger, older or the same age as I that don't have it as good as I do. I figured, what's the harm in helping them once in awhile? It's not like it'd hurt my pocket right?


So, I've only been with JJB for 2 days. And it was a serious eye-opener. I mean, I've had experiences working with little children and orphans, but tending to kids who have a disability was definitely new water to me. The first few minutes were tricky as I didn't know how to treat them (read somewhere that kids with Autism tend to become very over-protective and don't like physical contact that much). But after watching the other people handle these cute kids, I managed to handle them quite well :) But I know, things like this take time. For them to know you and ultimately, feel comfortable and safe around you. But hey, if time is what they need, then time is what I'll give.


Ok, I don't want this first post to be so long (a bit too late for that, I suppose). So I'll stop here. Will continue on another post about further developement in my life.





P.S/ I think I'll use this space to talk about how I feel about certain issues. But I'll try to steer away from politics, that crap is MESSY! Don't feel like having my face on Berita Harian or The Star as a felon, thank you :)